I was... sad.

Tonight I mourned Hannah. I was on World of Warcraft, listening to my music. It was right after Dev had gone to sleep.

A song came on. It was country, but I couldn't help but notice that the man singing had a really clear and soothing voice. So I decided to listen to it. Slowly listening to the lyrics, I heard the man was talking about a girl who had an illness.


Sara Beth is scared to death
To hear what the doctor will say
She hasn't been well
Since the day that she fell
And the bruise it just wont go away

So she sits and she waits with her mother and dad
And flips through an old magazine
'Til the nurse with a smile stands at the door
And says "Will you please come with me?"

Sara Beth is scared to death
Cause the doctor just told her the news
Between the red cells and white
Somethings not right
But we're gonna take care of you

Six chances in ten it wont come back again
With the therapy we're gonna try
It's just been approved it's the strongest there is
I think we caught it in time
Sara Beth closes her eyes

And she dreams she dancin' around and around
Without any cares
And her very first love
Is holding her close
And the soft wind is blowing her hair

Sara Beth is scared to death
as she sits holding her mom
cause It would be a mistake
For someone to take
A girl with no hair to the prom

For just this morning right there on her pillow
Was the cruelest of any surprise
She cried when she gathered it all in her hands
The proof that she couldn't deny
Sara Beth closes her eyes

And she dreams she dancin' around and around
With out any cares
And her very first love
Was holding her close
And the soft wind was blowing her hair

It's quarter to seven
that boy's at the door
And her daddy ushers him in
When he takes off his cap they all start to cry
Cause this morning where his hair had been
Softly she touches just skin

And they go dancin' around and around
Without any cares
And her very first true love
Was holding her close
And for a moment she isn't scared
Ohhhhhh.


Right after I heard the last part, I noticed I was crying. I couldn't *stop* crying. Tears just kept coming. It had went on to the next song, but I decided I wanted to listen to the Sara Beth song again, so I skipped back. I heard another country song, so I assumed it was the same one. But, instead, it was another...


Broken skies, heartaches that flowers won't mend
Say goodbye knowing that this is the end
Tender dreams, shadows fall
Love too sweet, to recall
Dry your eyes, face the dawn
Life will go on, life will go on

All day long thought that we still had a chance
Letting go, this is the end of romance
Broken hearts find your way
Make it through just this day
Face this world on your own
Life will go on, life will go on

There'll be blue skies, every true love
Someday I'll hold you again
They'll be blue skies in a better world, darlin'

Tender dreams, shadows fall
Love too sweet, to recall
Dry your eyes, face the dawn
Life will go on, life will go on
Broken heart find your way
Make it through just this day
Face this world on your own
Life will go on, life will go on


Maybe I was giving off a death vibe to my iPod or something, I don't know... but the chorus to this song did comfort me a bit; for that I'm grateful.

I guess I just felt I should tell someone about this, or write something about this. It makes me realize how lucky I am for my love, my life, my friends and my family. I'm eternally grateful for everything that I have; I love everyone so very much!